I really hate this feeling!!!!!! I really want to text this guy and I know I shouldn’t. I don’t like the guy and I know no good will come from talking to him. I’m glad he is out of my contact list. Why do I want to text him? Why do I want to hang out with him? I don’t like what happens. I know I don’t. Maybe at the time I do but not after that. I always seem to want to text him when I feel alone. When I feel like there is no one else. It’s a horrible feeling. I hate that I want to text him. I hate that I want to hang out with him. I know I’m repeating myself but I can’t think straight. Nothing in my head is making any sense to me. I know I have problems and I know I probably should talk to someone about it but I can’t. At least not the way Ashley thinks I should. I can’t explain it. I feel like I’m being left behind by everyone. I can’t explain that either. Everyone around me seems to be maturing and I’m staying the same. I feel like nothing has changed about me since freshman year of high school. I wish I had someone to hold me in their arms right now. To tell me everything will be alright. But that is not the case. I’m sorry for bringing anyone down who may read this. I just don’t know what else to do. Writing makes me feel better when the world around me seems to be falling apart.