Okay, no more messing around! I’m going to do what I’ve promised myself for months, possibly years, now. I am going to put myself out there. I’m going to meet new people and talk to others I don’t know. I’m going to call up people and hang out with them. I’m going to not be as shy as I have been in the past. I’m going to go through life acting as if I don’t care what others think. (I can only act because the truth of the matter is that I do care.) I’m going to do this. I may even find out where I could talk to a therapist that wouldn’t cost me a ton of money. That would be good if I could talk out my feelings. My only problem sometimes is that I don’t talk about my bad feelings of low self-esteem unless I’m in that mood. If I’m happy and having a good day I don’t like talking about it because I feel like that part of me is gone and that it won’t come back. Truth is, it does come back.

I hope this works. I’m really trying. Maybe not trying as hard as I could be. I want to be trying as hard as I could be. I’m not going to put in any buts in this blog. No excuses for me. I’m not going to try and let myself off by giving a lame excuse that I can’t do it. I can do it and I will. Ashley is allowed to kick my butt if I don’t. I need time though. Don’t expect this to happen overnight. It will take time. My goal is that I will be a lot better by next year.

THIS WILL WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That’s all I have to say about that!